3 dreams, 1 God.

First dream, 6 x 3 = 18 lives!

Second dream, SHSS Cell.

Third dream, Radical Rivers.

Those who know what these dreams are, good on ya! haha. But those who don't, no worries (:

But anyway, here's my point.

God gives us dreams, or rather we may have dreams of our own.

Dreams to get into our dream career, or to be married by 25 years old, or to simply just live each day to the fullest, Carpe Diem. But not every dream is easy to achieve, that's why it's called a dream!

But what do yo do when you come face to face with reality? That whatever you're dreaming of is just too far-fetched, impossible, and maybe not even worth dreaming about cause it's just too tough to be accomplished.

That feeling stinks.

But with my three dreams, I've got nothing to start with, empty handed, except the power of God. These dreams are meaningless and pointless without His grace and power, because these are His dreams.

God does not give us a dream for nothing.

And He does not give us a dream if He can't fulfill it.

So all that's required now if three things:

- Prayer

- Obedience

- Faith

dream

  [dreem] Show IPA noun

1. a cherished aspiration, ambition, or ideal : "I fulfilled a childhood dream when I became champion" | the girl of my dreams | 2. an unrealistic or self-deluding fantasy : "maybe he could get a job and earn some money—but he knew this was just a dream."

Choose your definition of your dream. (:

Give & take.

I started ballet in 1996,

started hiphop in 2008,

started ballroom in 2009's february 3rd.

I stopped ballet in late 2008,

stopped hiphop in end April 2009,

stopped ballroom in end June 2009.

July, August, September, October = no dance, AT ALL.

Dance WAS my life, it was something I held close to my heart, it was my identity. It wasn't something that I allowed to be taken away from me that easily, not my mom's advice during my busy periods, nor the discouragements along the way, nor my busy schedule, dance was me.

But when it all came to a stop, when dance became absent in my life,

it felt weird, a little empty, but mainly lost.

It felt like life wasn't exactly that complete, that life wasn't at it's best.

I began questioning God, doubting God and getting upset with Him. I couldn't understand why He had to take it all away, why put three dances in my life, just to remove it all away.

Basically, I struggled and wrestled with God.

But ultimately, I knew why at the end of it.

He took dance away from my life, just to teach me, surrender.

To show me that dance isn't me, but dance is what He has given to me.

Many times, during ballet exams, my prayers were just security blankets, it were just words to comfort myself that God's helping me. But I took it all into my hands, I danced with my strength, and not His. God didn't want my "security prayers", He wanted full surrender from me.

God takes things away,

just so that He can fill us.

Mom was in HK, NZ, is in China, will be in Israel.

Situation 1: Whitesands foodcourt, at the laksa stall.

Mom, "You bring the food ah, I go buy drinks first. What you want?"

Me, "Uh, teh bing. (: "

Mom walks away to buy drinks, comes back after 1-2mins.

Mom, "Teh bing, you want cold or hot?"

Hahahahhaha! My mom's so cute :P

Situation 2: Around 2pm, parents just came home from church, and I just got out of bed (I KNOW, I SLEPT IN. HEE )

I was trying to act "awake", cause I didn't want my rents to nag that I slept till so late in the afternoon.

Mom looks at me when she walks in, "Just wake up ah?!"

Me, "Huh...How you know?? ): "

Mom, "You got sleepy face what."

Daaaang, mom's smart, and knows the best.

18th!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY AMANDA TAN HUI YING!

MUCH LOVE,

AMANDA TEO HUI PING!

I'm listing, again & again.

(Lists have became my bestfriend)

What you're about to read may not make sense.

1,Everyone's gone, except maybe one or two, therefore I'm only really talking to God. I don't like it when I've got no one.

2, God's stretching me, and it's getting way too tiring and mind draining. I know it's time to surrender and let go, but it's tough when there's too much to be done.

3, Friends are friends, but what about close friends? Hmm, it's coming. I can feel God moving, I know something's happening in this dream of mine (:

4, Dance greeted me with huge blisters, then again, no pain no gain.

5, In my mind and body, my life's a mess.

In my spirit, my life's growing.

In my heart, it's cluttered.

Questions, no answers yet.

Fire ball.

Well, it's 2:08am now, so it's late.

But I felt like typing stuff down, stuff about PJ, about God.

PJ is my youth pastor, MY pastor. The first pastor that played a major role in my life.

Though I've never exactly lead/work with her in specific projects/missions, listening to her preach, teach and challenge has changed my life.

PJ is a dynamic woman, one who speaks with passion and zeal. Someone who challenges us to go beyond our limits, into God's limits, one with authority and yet gentle to our spirit. One who's prayers at the altar has changed my life, one who fasted and loved us just because she did.

Someone I respect and honour, someone who has inspired me to live my life for God. Someone who taught me leadership, who taught me what it means to be a disciple of Christ. The person who dreamt Godly dreams, and believed in faith that it would come to past. One who believed in EVERY young person.

PJ was the one who called me 'fire ball', cause she believes that God's gonna use me to spread God's word like a fire ball. She's the one who prayed over my life for the anointing of God, who baptised me in the Spirit, who comforted my spirit with God's words through her. 

Megalife is where she is, because of PJ, because of her obedience to be used by God in that season of her life. Goodbyes are always tough, but I didn't think it would be THIS tough. But we all know, it's all about God's timing and obedience. So PJ, go! Cause Megalife is always behind you, always supporting you, I'm always behind your back cause I love you, my youth pastor! Thank you for believing in me (:

"Fire ball"

Change

ENFPs are known as the 'Advocate', and are visionaries.

Primary function: Extraverted intuition

Secondary function: Introverted feeling

Tertiary function: Extraverted thinking

Least function: Introverted sensing

ENFPs are described as creative, resourceful, assertive, spontaneous, life-loving, charismatic, passionate and experimental. 

I guess I've not changed much on the surface, but weighing the percentages, I have!

I was a HIGH extravert, but now I'm in between, just slanting to the extravert side. 

It's made me realise something, people change.

We do change, we're changing every second, every moment in our life, just not drastic changes. It is only when we look back after a few years that we see a change in ourselves. We may not realise that we're changing, but we are.

But it's not all about the change, it's about the everyday decisions we make that affects how we are changed, and that's the important part. Our daily living is going to bring us higher, or lower, we'll never be stagnant through our lives. Our opinions, view points and ideas will change, maybe not today or next week, but over the years.

'Change is constant', and change is something we have to embrace.